tHeRe iS No NeeD tO reAD tHis oK ^ ^

you know what i hate the most about this kind of weird feeling i have right now? it makes me too sensitive in all about you know who, everything!

when i asked ian about it, asked for some advice actually, even though i know what he would told me exactly!, but still when i heard it <its just a random feeling, just dont keep it on heart, just ignore it>

how can i supposed to react on it?!! it just its been a zillion time until i feel like i cant even remember how this kind feeling felt. and ian said to ignore it and it just some kind of hormone and all.

and since i tried to ignore this---- you know, i dont know how to~ i dont know. its been two weeks since i last saw, not even a chance to talk. not even a single message, or even just to share those kind of happy thing, share some joy!

its not that kind of feeling you know, i think you what you think actually, but be assure that its not that kind of feeling. you know, this kind of feeling that you miss somebody, have the urge to see someone an all, cant eat or study properly because you cant stop from think about somebody, but its not that!

i dont have those iritating kind of thing happened to me, this whole two weeks. i did actually excited to go to the lab experiment to had the exp. with YAMABUKI sensei.

i just need some attention from you know who. i think. and since i dont know, not being ignored i think, but from my point of view, being unseen, or being there is no need to see me kind of feeling, it makes me want to eat something!

i hate it, i hate you know who~