aRi iNi yAnG SOT!

tadi tensen2 dengan ketidak cantiknya markah midsem aku, aku nampak budak2 4th year duduk luar co-op.. apa lagi, nda sedar2 jak aku duduk sudah sebelah zam. ha3

lepas 2, cam besa la tensen2 ni mau makan benda manis kan... budak2 2 pun cakap la 'oshn bila lagi mu mau belanja aiskrim?'

lepas 2 aku pun selamba la, 'meh la, mau pegi ...' cantik jak cakap macam 2 kan

masuk2 jak co-op, cek la aiskrim. pilih2 2 aku cakap la kita ni main ambik2 jak, kalu aku teda bawa purse ni, mati la..

sekali aku cek beg aku, memang teda! memang aku lupa bawa purse ari ni!!! cantik, suma orang buat muka alamak!.... hahahahahhahahahahah

macam mana ni?? naim siap cakap 'ala, tepaksa la letak balik ni..'

hahahahha, nasib baik la zam ada menyelamatkan keadaan. zam la belanja. tapi, aduh!!!!!

hahahahha. sori ek zam. karang aku ganti duit aiskrim n belanja aiskrim erk...

tHe PaST fEw hOuRS

there's one day when full moon is covered by dark cloud, and the road have been washed by the rain, and the stars cannot be seen, that's how my heart feel right now.

there's a hope for some lightning to enhance the view sometimes, not too much, just enough to bring the memories of my existance, and the thunder, for bring some sound of rememberance.

the sky i see right now cant be as blue as i hope it will, just as dark as the ink will do. the wind i try to feel cant be as sweet as chocolate heart candy will bring to our loved one, just numb as my hand will be in winter...

the smile i try to give, the voice i try to bring, just as hard as i cant face my mom's face when i got D for my physics, and it brings tears to my very deep soul. i am hurt. too much.

nExt > < * * *

ari ni siap la jugak report Yamabuki Sensei yang sepatutnya diantar minggu lepas. hu3... sudah la 1 report yang aku antar time 2 nda complete. nda tau la macam mana lab aku tahun ni > <

ni pun kalu bukan sebab Ayano-chan bagi aku salin jawapan soalan dia, aku rasa malam ni aku masih lagi tensen2 fikir macam mana aku mau susun ayat, even aku tau jawapan dia..

but siap 1 report, doesnt mean i can guling2, i do still have lab's report to do each week, and exam too for each week. fuh~



sejak kebelakangan ni teda benda yang best berlaku dalam kehidupan seharian, memandangkan aku serius tensen dengan report yang nda siap2 tu, sampai aku teda mood langsung untuk cakap dengan orang...


tapi, nasib baik la, wawa datang bagi aku kelainan yang aku memang harap, kerelaxan bercerita apa saja, kesempoian memberi suggestion yang selama ni aku malas mau bilang, dan everything that i need for this time...

its not that i do hate anybody, it just i need some fresh air to be myself. i hate being the only 1 who doesnt hate what they are talking about at that time, i am tired of being the only 1 who are different in pyschology term, the way i do thinking and the way i do express my own feeling. 


i want some relax mode, which at that moment, i can laugh at some supid thing, smile when i do feel like it, and  jut be content with the environment and accompany. 

doesnt have to fake a smile, or laugh just to lighten up the mood.just being me..  i really do not like the pressure i feel right now because of someone ask me to do something i dont want to. 

bLa3

gila, aku tensen dengan report polymer ni...!!!! uwa~

aN eviL peNGuiN

do you know this kind of feeling..?? hahahahahha...

i cant stop laughing and laughing and^ fuh...

tHeRe iS No NeeD tO reAD tHis oK ^ ^

you know what i hate the most about this kind of weird feeling i have right now? it makes me too sensitive in all about you know who, everything!

when i asked ian about it, asked for some advice actually, even though i know what he would told me exactly!, but still when i heard it <its just a random feeling, just dont keep it on heart, just ignore it>

how can i supposed to react on it?!! it just its been a zillion time until i feel like i cant even remember how this kind feeling felt. and ian said to ignore it and it just some kind of hormone and all.

and since i tried to ignore this---- you know, i dont know how to~ i dont know. its been two weeks since i last saw, not even a chance to talk. not even a single message, or even just to share those kind of happy thing, share some joy!

its not that kind of feeling you know, i think you what you think actually, but be assure that its not that kind of feeling. you know, this kind of feeling that you miss somebody, have the urge to see someone an all, cant eat or study properly because you cant stop from think about somebody, but its not that!

i dont have those iritating kind of thing happened to me, this whole two weeks. i did actually excited to go to the lab experiment to had the exp. with YAMABUKI sensei.

i just need some attention from you know who. i think. and since i dont know, not being ignored i think, but from my point of view, being unseen, or being there is no need to see me kind of feeling, it makes me want to eat something!

i hate it, i hate you know who~

hP aKU beNGonG!!!!

ari 2 duduk2 dengan singa n yik makan askrim kan, keluar la cerita pasal mau tukar keitai(hp) ni kan.. mau tunggu iphone 5 la baru tukar la apa la kan..

balik2 2 kan, keitai aku freeze! ambik kau, mau sangat tukar keitai kan!?? lepas 2 kan, bila aku tekan apa2 jak button terus dia pelan2 jadik hitam! uwa~

aku off keitai n on balik pun dia still macam 2. tensen tol la c keitai ni. tadi ai mau mintak aku bg dia contact emi pun nda dapat.

jangan kan mau send, mau buka sekigaisen(infrared) pun nda boleh. nda boleh tekan apa2 button pun!

aku start midsem exam minggu depan, dan report da start banyak, and di saat2 runcing ni la tiba2 c keitai ni mau buat hal!! apa ni???

aku mau jawab mesej, ok, nda sempat mau jawab pun, buka mesej untuk baca pun nda dapat! ha, macam mana ni?

time2 aku kena banyak jumpa budak2 jepun ni di library la dia ni buat hal. macam mana aku mau jumpa budak2 ni kalu mau baca mesej dorang pun aku nda boleh??

hei keitai, nda kan merajuk kot aku cakap aku mau tukar ko pegi iphone 5? lama lagi la, aku masih perlu khidmat bakti kau lagi, jangan mengada2 mau merajuk ka, menyamal ka apa ka eh..

adui!!