my beloved dila

i've got this love letter from france said 'yang, hope this will help you. love u.' that message brought me more unspeakable emotions than anything. more than what i felt when bie gave me daisies (sorry bie, i know you didn't mean to give me that but i appreciate the gesture..).

bie and dila, those times and attentions and everything you both ever gave and will give me, i wish i can pay you back but even if i can, i know the value will not be the same as how i feel right now. dila, you give me 'shoulder to cry ' when others just shield theirs with 'so called sympathy'.  bie, you just gave me your 'lunch break' for sadist but unbiased kind of talking to encourage me.   

i hope this post don't hurt anyone who read and misunderstand the real meaning of what i try to share. in this world, there is no such thing called friend until it is tested and verified to hold the title of friend in a true worth. just as marriage's vow means to be true to you in good times and bad, and blah3, friend's vow is unspoken so people seems cant' find the existence but actually it brings more responsibilities than you imagine. 

friends come second after family, mostly and generally if you don have complex family affairs. they are people who are around you 24/7 when you're not at home . so naturally friends become you and vice versa. but you'll never know who were your friend until it is time to lay your and their true heart. and its scary, believe me.

so, if you got seriously good and best friend(s), i hope you really treat them well and take good care of her/him/them. there's not so many people will come to your hand when they most needed.

nurul fadhilah matasan, i cant thank you enough but thanks dear. i love you too.. pray for me i can make through this...

p/s: lama x tulis english. sori la yg terer english tu jadi nak trmuntah baca kesalahan bahasa saya..